i am so glad that you wrote to me. i can see and feel your pain and anger; and i am so sorry that you have been hurt. life is so precarious, so hard, so painful at times. true love is a miracle; and miracles are hard to come by these days.

there is absolutely nothing noble, pure, admirable or right about the way she treated you. neither is there anything noble, pure, admirable or right about the way your "friend" treated you. i have a great difficulty with broken promises and broken committments... they are broken covenants and the God of the universe detests broken covenants.

both she and your friend broke faith with you. they were very wrong and what they did was heinous. i want you to know that The Eternal felt your pain and just as you were ripped asunder, so also did He feel that as if He were you, and His righteous pain ripped across eternity... on your behalf. so great and magnanimous is His true love for you.

i am so sorry about your pain. and so sad that she and your friend were so shallow. but no act of deceit, no broken covenant goes without its own "reward" and that recompense will doubtless come to both of them.

the Beloved desires that all of us share heaven with Him, be we redheads, blondes, brunettes, all of us... the redhead section i created was all in jest, for fun.

growing up as a redhead was extremely awful. the blondes and brunettes were always the favored ones, even though i was smarter. it took a lot of therapy after my husband raped my daughters for me to believe i was valuable. even though i belonged to the Living God, i did not believe He loved me the way He loved everyone else in the universe. so, much of what you see on my site, including the redhead section, came out of my struggle to believe i was valuable to the Almighty God... even if no one else values me, or loves me.

i want you to go back to my site and read this:

http://www.webqueen.net/solaz/2-19-93.shtml
http://www.webqueen.net/solaz/zchristian.shtml

i've had a broadsword through my stomach... i've had my daughters' innocence stolen... i've been ravaged, pillaged, and raped...

and The Eternal, Almighty, Living God counts me as most excellent, most worthy, and most lovable. He calls me His very own daughter, special. He has tatooed my name on the palm of His hand... and i will live forever with Him in heaven.

i do not think that redheads have any more right to "lose their temper" than anyone else. i do not think that they have any more propensity toward temper- loss or lack of anger control than anyone else. it's just an excuse. blondes and brunettes have some other excuse, i suppose. you are right, it is their refusal to control their anger.

we all have responsibiltiy to each other to do right. so, because i love the Lover, because the Beloved is my beloved, even if no one else loves me, i choose to give love away, as much as He gives in me.

for you, with love:

if i can speak in the tongues of men and even of angels, but have not love, that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by God's love for and in us, i am only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.

and if i have prophetic powers--that is, the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose; and understand all the secret truths and mysteries and possess all knowledge, and if i have sufficient faith so that i can remove mountains, but have not love--God's love in me--i am nothing--a useless nobody.

even if i dole out all that i have to the poor in providing food, and if i surrender my body to be burned or in order that i may glory, but have not love--God's love in me--i gain nothing.

love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy; is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.

it is not conceited--arrogant and inflated with pride; it is not rude, unmannerly, and does not act unbecomingly. love--God's love in us--does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it--pays no attention to a suffered wrong.

it does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.

love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances and it endures everything without weakening.

love never fails--never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end. as for prophecy, that is, the gift of interpreting the divine will and purpose, it will be fulfilled and pass away; as for tongues, they will be destroyed and cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away, that is, it will lose its value and be superseded by truth.

for our knowledge is fragmentary, incomplete and imperfect, and our prophecy, our teaching, is fragmentary, incomplete and imperfect. but when the complete and perfect, total, comes, the incomplete and imperfect will vanish away-- become antiquated, void and superceded.

...and so faith, hope, love abide; faith, conviction and belief respecting man's relation to God and divine things; hope, joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love, true affection for God and man, growing out of God's love for and in us, these three, but the greatest of these is love. (1corinthians 13)

-----may the wondrous, mystery of God's great love envelope you so completely over the next few days, and may you see your waste places turned into gardens by His hand.