i am a covenant-breaker; a promise-breaker; a liar; a thief; an adulterer; and in a sense, a murderer. i live behind a shield of secrecy. i only allow you to know that which i want you to know, and i hide the rest.

Our God and Messiah, Jesus the Christ, has truly made everything beautiful in its time; He tucked eternity in everyone's heart and mind--a divinely implanted sense of purpose working through the ages which nothing under the sun, but only God, can satisfy--yet no one can fathom what God has done from the beginning to the end. I know that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it; all this so that we will reverently fear Him--know that He is, revere and worship Him. And truly God will judge the righteous and the unrighteous; for there is a time appointed for every matter and purpose and for every work. And all the painful effort of our labor and all our skill and work rise out of our vain striving; as if thereby we could harness the wind. We are such inglorious creatures; yet it pleases Him to put His mark upon us and shower us with His love.

i have plenty of company. i stand with the rich and famous, and the poor and ignoble. we are all covenant-breakers. and standing not too far off from us, are the ones we broke covenant with; the ones who stood firm for covenant even while we ran away.

Even so, we do well to draw near to Him for the singular purpose of hearing and obeying. For God is in His temple, and we are upon this little ball, earth; our words should be uttered/written in great caution. For when we speak out/write words into the universe, we have uttered/written such in the presence of the Holy God Almighty. And He has no pleasure in fools. Vows, promises, commitments, covenants should be kept or not made at all. Why should we foolishly allow the destroyer to steal the work of our hands?

because He loves so profoundly; because of grace, amazing grace; it is in faith i can stand alone before The Eternal and lift my hands, and like Jesus, cry out with weeping, praying and fasting... for my sin of breaking covenant; for my brothers and sisters who have broken covenant--in the past, and time yet to come; and before the Beloved, repent on our behalf...theirs and mine... "most merciful God... please forgive us."

But the reverent fear of God is only the very beginning of wisdom. Wisdom makes one person more powerful than ten kings/presidents. Yet there is not a righteous person on earth who does what is right and never sins. How tragic that so many who claim His name raise themselves up in a righteousness that is as unholy and repulsive to the Beloved as the incense offered by Aaron's sons.

standing in the gap with others called to unite in this sacrifice, i give voice to intercessory prayers that rip out across eternity and the Beloved One hears; and forgives. enemy strongholds come crashing down. the fragrant aroma of sacrifice, appropriation of grace... mercy of unparralleled dimensions falls like the hush of new-fallen snow upon me and others known by Him as covenant-breakers.

There is a right time and judgement for every purpose and matter, and God will bring every deed into judgement, including every hidden thing done/said in secret, whether it is good or not.

we are free at last. free from the concealed entrapment of breaking covenants made in the presence of a holy, righteous God. now, i can breathe. i am a covenant-breaker... forgiven. and He still loves me... unconditionally.